DONT KNOW WHAT TO FEEL...my fren died and the other friend delivered a baby in a same day..

(Gambar kenangan...our gathering after about 13 years didnt see each other. Anah wearing pink string top)

My Best Friend….God LOVES U most…

SESUNGGUHNYA ALLAH MAHAKUASA..SEGALA YG BERLAKU ADALAH KETENTUAN NYA.

Oh My God…10.15am this morning I got a sudden sms frm Juefy (Juita)…it says “saya cuma nak bagitau,..Anah meninggal dunia semalam, kena langgar lori masa balik dari kerja” ..reading this sms, I was like…”OH GOD!! Cannot Be..How could this happen. Juefy must be kidding me!..” then I called Juefy straight away. She couldn’t talk then somebody else grab the phone..it was Garry (Gracy)..She said..” Geeda, Anah is no more around…I have no more friend at work” ..i was screaming..”what happened? Please say u guyz are kidding..i don’t believe this..PLEEAAASEEE!” Garry told me that Anah was about to get down from the public bus from work the at the moment she come out from the bus, she was hit by a lorry. Then garry couldnt talk anymore..she said she will call back coz they are heading to Anah’s house to see Anah’s body. Then I called Catherine at kg…she just knew about it from Garry but she couldn’t make it to Anah’s funeral as Cath is on her confinement on her 1st baby girl named Tiara. Then after that conversation over the phone ,I was all BLANK! I couldn’t believe this…I’ve been happily chatting with Anah almost everyday…selagi ada peluang I will be on line with her. Sharing so many things..been chatting about having kids..coz Anah married to Mr Thiel a very handsome Germany guy since 4 years ago..tapi sampai sekarang masih belum ada rezeki lagi untuk dapat anak.. a baby that she ‘ been longing for…she wanted it for so loooong. Oh dear..pity her. Recently we were planning to go to Europe together coz she said she is now saving money cos she s planning to visit her in-law family in Europe again next year. She visited them once last time. So since I also planning(more like dreaming lah) to visit my brother in Dublin to we were chatting about our dream trip of going abroad together. Actually ive been wondering why she kept on saying that she really proud and solute me for being so strong in struggling on what I’ve been tru in my life line…padahal I ni pulak very jealous ( in positive way) on her achievement in her carrier in tourism and also her wonderful marriage with her ‘lelaki impian’. (mat salleh pulak tu). We’ve been sharing a lot about this topics lately. CARRIER AND MARRIAGE. And today...when they told me that she s no more around..oh GOD!!

Anah…a best friend of mine..and other gangs ( like Garry, Catherine, Juita, Jane, Hamisah, samsiah and few more) since 1993 when we were in SMK Project Gemilang Likas (school for BRAINY & ATHLETIC students) ..then after that we further study together in ALL SAINTS School. Lepas tu bawa diri masing2…tak jumpa selama almost 13 years…then in early 2006 tiba2 contact balik sesame sendiri…kebetulan I balik kg pd December 2006 we gathered again….just 2 hours gathering .byk benda dah berubah EXCEPT our FRIENDSHIP..time gathering ni i sempat ambik gambar and letak kat my frienster. That’s the last time I met Anah…the last warm hug from her. We’ve been missing each other so much. Then this year end of May 2008 I went back to my hometown again coz my sister Jess khawin and also my own wedding universary(konon, tumpang party orang ni). BUT unfortunately I tak sempat jumpa kawan2 except for Cath(sebab satu kg) coz I only stay there for 2 weeks where schedule were very very tight as we are too busy preparing for the big day. Then my frens pulak kg dorang jauh2. After I came back to KL the Anah was so angry coz tak sempat bejumpa. then i said to her that '"nanti saya balik lah lagi, still got time andwe can do a proper-planned gathering again". Now i realised that pepatah ESOK MASIH ADA tidak menjanjikan satu harapan yang pasti.

So at the moment... all I can do ... keep browsing Anah’s Friendster webpage with nonstop tears. The only site that we can glance tru to see her pics collection. I really hope if this blog of hers will remain here…with no subscription expiry date. ...God! I wish I can fly there to her funeral to pay last respect to her..unfortunately I couldn’t . I’m stranded here (couldn’t leave my kids coz they having high fever and also chicken fox)…cuma mampu termenung dan menangisi pemergian seorang teman baik yang begitu bermakna dalam hidup saya. Dia pergi meninggalkan perlbagai kenangan pahit manis ketika bersama dulu…dan meninggalkan perbagai falsafah hidup yang dia sempat kongsi dengan saya kebelakangan ni..walaupun dengan cara hidup yang berbeza TAPI kami berkongsi & memahami satu pegangan hidup yang sama. I will remember all those lines about life that you’ve been telling me. Anah my dear….semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mu! Sesungguhnya Allah lebih menyayangi mu. Amin

. Anah Linduman @ Anah Thiel in loving memory..



DI HARI YANG SAMA....sesungguhnya ALLAH Mahakuasa.....i was wondering about my other gudfriend on her "counting big day" peak season. Counting days to deliver her very first baby..so i sms her this afternoon...THANKS GOD...dia selamat bersalin..tru Caesarean..she delivered a babyboy this afternoon at 1pm....Congratulation SUE!


So today...so many things came across....i ended up with "undescribable" feeling. For what i know..i feel so "PURPLE + BLUE" all around.